thoughts or something like it
Welp. 26/white/bi/genderqueer/disabled and a lot of other things
I’m just here to say that there’s a chance the first thing my lupus really attacks is my eyes and let me tell you this is a SURPRISE PLOT TWIST and I’m not fucking happy about it so send your absentee tumblr friend your best vibes ever for wednesday, have an appointment after spending all of Saturday in urgent care and ER ruling out some of the big stuff. !!!
It’s shitty that I only come to this space to panic but here we are!
Not losing my vision! It must be neurological which means weeks if not months of doctors appointments ahead. Yay
I’m just here to say that there’s a chance the first thing my lupus really attacks is my eyes and let me tell you this is a SURPRISE PLOT TWIST and I’m not fucking happy about it so send your absentee tumblr friend your best vibes ever for wednesday, have an appointment after spending all of Saturday in urgent care and ER ruling out some of the big stuff. !!!
It’s shitty that I only come to this space to panic but here we are!
fucking INCREDIBLE when people throw “tumblr politics” around as if their opinions are inherently more valid! woah tumblr I’m back facebook has been slowly but surely draining the absolute LIFE out of me
FUMING
fucking INCREDIBLE when people throw “tumblr politics” around as if their opinions are inherently more valid! woah tumblr I’m back facebook has been slowly but surely draining the absolute LIFE out of me
This is so pure. :)
omg this is my favorite thing ever
give him a hat it’s hot outside
(via petitetimidgay)
Fuck this narrative.
It erases disabled people. The elderly. Children.
It’s classist, ableist, racist, and just wrong.
NOBODY DESERVES TO LIVE IN POVERTY! Period.
Fuck capitalism, liberalism, and political ideas of worth and value.
particularly when we literally have the resources to ensure no one does but capitalism favors money before human lives
People should not be defined according to how useful they are to the capitalist system.
(via the-black-rabbits-hole)
the faces people make when i say i had a happy childhood are incredible denial is real!? Or i complain so much that people think my childhood was actually bad
lol see that denial? help
plus
some extra thoughts:
am i just too old for this site? maybe. i’ll miss this platform dearly even though i leave for long stretches. plus with my memory it’s helpful having certain archives
i’m thinking more about medical transitioning as an option but like for Way in the future because school and possibly attempting to have children but idk tbh
aspects of top surgery would be amazing. I would kill for facial hair and a different voice. even admitting this stuff is still hard especially given my heightened dysphoria these days Jesus
idk i need to go to a gender therapist for any of this which is an entirely separate logistical step and i loathe the medical field which makes me loathe the idea of medical transitioning like I’m already exhausted
i just
am convinced that if i transition but still present feminine sometimes people are going to loathe me so!
last extra thought: schools are just so strange and community colleges are tiny hells
my asl class is full of young kiddos who are ableist and not interested in trying/are interested in cheating and like tbh i may have been them years ago so in terms of academic integrity zero character judgment, whatever
but the ableism is exhausting and over all i just feel too old to be surrounded by this tomfoolery
i can’t tell if my chest pain is from anxiety or wearing my binders too often but tbh wearing a binder relieves anxiety sooooooo?